Mama

Assalamualaikum and genite,,  baca pasal rokok cap babi

Siang tadi aku macam biasa, lepas isytihar tak ada cerita best kat semua channel yang biasa favorite, channel ceria 611 aku lawat. Yes! Its Chibi Maruko Chan! Now jangan boo dulu. I can't help it having this little kid heart inside. So the episode is about maruko forgetting things she must brought to school such as school trip fees, and sport wear. So she after few efforts and alternatives, decided to call home. Her mom had ran all the way from home to school to bring her school trip fees. Which at the moment, i got quick flashback on the same scene happening to me when i was at school. 

She had gone to work. On recess i called her and she drove all the way from her office to home, searching whatever shit i forgot to bring and drove to school then back to her office. This is my mom, she would do anything for her children. There are four of us troubling one strong mother. Not just once or twice, but uncountable times that we got our mom into troubles. I was doing this crap since elementary school until high school to my mom. God.

Ofcourse she nagged. A lot. But she does everything. And never complain. And when im 20 and her at late 40s, she start to complain a lot about her knee, feet and backpain and her unstable mens but above all she still loves smiling and laughing and being cheeky. She still doing the house chores without saying " i'm tired doing all these things " like i always did to my brothers(cause they don't move their buts). Guess her attitude gene doesnt really hit me. Hah-ha

I'm sorry for not making her dream watching me pursue my studies at foreign country like she did. I'm sorry for not even make it to USM like my father. I'm so sorry i'm not a daughter they can be proud of. Maybe i don't work hard enough to earn those. But.. perhaps no matter how good my grades or how hard i work, i might get the same thing i have now. You know. Its fate. But,.. everytime i thought about this,. that i can't be like my mom or dad,.. it's sad and hurt. It really does.

Basically if you get cgpa of 3.0 you get to enter USM but only for course that have low requirements of cgpa lah. For my course, it takes 3.9 and above to work. Even in UiTM, my classmates are those with cgpa of 3.8 and above only (actually most of them are 4flatter). So i'm grateful actually.

I have big ego. This ego doesn't let me to express my love to my mom or dad verbally like any other normal human beings. But i hope she know.. they both know that whatever happen, i love them eternally.

 

 

*right so i use english in this post, as usual don't bash me. It is a practice for my academic grade. so excuse meh k bye ni haa baca rokok tak halal