Mama

Assalamualaikum and genite,,  baca pasal rokok cap babi

Siang tadi aku macam biasa, lepas isytihar tak ada cerita best kat semua channel yang biasa favorite, channel ceria 611 aku lawat. Yes! Its Chibi Maruko Chan! Now jangan boo dulu. I can't help it having this little kid heart inside. So the episode is about maruko forgetting things she must brought to school such as school trip fees, and sport wear. So she after few efforts and alternatives, decided to call home. Her mom had ran all the way from home to school to bring her school trip fees. Which at the moment, i got quick flashback on the same scene happening to me when i was at school. 

She had gone to work. On recess i called her and she drove all the way from her office to home, searching whatever shit i forgot to bring and drove to school then back to her office. This is my mom, she would do anything for her children. There are four of us troubling one strong mother. Not just once or twice, but uncountable times that we got our mom into troubles. I was doing this crap since elementary school until high school to my mom. God.

Ofcourse she nagged. A lot. But she does everything. And never complain. And when im 20 and her at late 40s, she start to complain a lot about her knee, feet and backpain and her unstable mens but above all she still loves smiling and laughing and being cheeky. She still doing the house chores without saying " i'm tired doing all these things " like i always did to my brothers(cause they don't move their buts). Guess her attitude gene doesnt really hit me. Hah-ha

I'm sorry for not making her dream watching me pursue my studies at foreign country like she did. I'm sorry for not even make it to USM like my father. I'm so sorry i'm not a daughter they can be proud of. Maybe i don't work hard enough to earn those. But.. perhaps no matter how good my grades or how hard i work, i might get the same thing i have now. You know. Its fate. But,.. everytime i thought about this,. that i can't be like my mom or dad,.. it's sad and hurt. It really does.

Basically if you get cgpa of 3.0 you get to enter USM but only for course that have low requirements of cgpa lah. For my course, it takes 3.9 and above to work. Even in UiTM, my classmates are those with cgpa of 3.8 and above only (actually most of them are 4flatter). So i'm grateful actually.

I have big ego. This ego doesn't let me to express my love to my mom or dad verbally like any other normal human beings. But i hope she know.. they both know that whatever happen, i love them eternally.

 

 

*right so i use english in this post, as usual don't bash me. It is a practice for my academic grade. so excuse meh k bye ni haa baca rokok tak halal

sorry bro

Assalamualaikum.  Baru-baru ni aku tegur sorang insan ni kat instagram. Dia ni hmm apa org pnggil tu.. viner yang bole dikatakan famous gak la. Rupa pun ada en so rmai la follower dia. Bnyak la video vine yang dia buat. Aku entah mcm mna asalnya tngok feeds terjumpa satu video dia ni. Aku faham mesej sebenar yang dia nak sampaikan, jgn menilai seseorang daripada luaran. Video dia pasal perempuan tak bertudung yang disangka buruk perangai dan last-last perempuan tu actually hati baik tolong orang. Aku faham. Tapi pada aku, video dia jugak bawak fahaman lain yang orang boleh salah anggap. Seolah-olah menggalakkan perempuan yang tak bertudung. Aku siap terbaca komen-komen mereka yang freehair, antaranya..

terima kasih sebab memahami, tak payah pakai tudung untuk buat baik

 Aku biasanya tak busybody. Tapi kali ni, sebab mood swing sekali aku DM dia. Haih tak pernah-pernah aku private message stranger lagi-lagi laki. Masa tu aku betul-betul nekad nak tegur dia. Orang tengah emo, nak ja aku dgn ayat sarkastik kat komen. Tapi takyah la. Malu pulak dia nanti. So aku DM. Yang bagusnya dia balas. Aku target dia ignore ja aku ni. 

Dia kata motif sebenar video dont judge book by its cover blablabla.. kenapa orang selalu nak cari kesalahan berbanding kebaikan dulu blabla.. 

Aku bukan mencari kesalahan orang dulu. Aku faham mesej video tu. Mesej tu bagus lagi-lagi dalam kalangan masyarakat kita ni. Yes. Dalam masa yang sama aku rasa video tu ada kekurangan sikit. Jadi selain dipuji tak boleh ka nak suarakan pendapat sikit? Aku tau dia jawab dengan aku sarkastik tapi salah aku jugak la sbb mulakan dulu. *btw, aku memang selalu sarkastik dengan lelaki. Tak tahu la kenapa. Tak selesa dgn depa kot. Pastu rasa bersalah.

Kadang, aku tak faham. Mungkin aku dah teracun dengan mindset, lelaki yang tak jaga kaum perempuan ni, dayus. Selagi boleh tegur & nasihat diorang, buat ja lah. Bukan lagi promote diorang. Tak pasal, lagi ramai yang tengok aurat dia. Sekarang dengan trend hipster lagi, pandang ringan ja semua benda.

Aku tak layak pun nak cakap-cakap pasal agama. Aku sendiri banyak gila dosa.  Tapi satu benda aku belajar, menghukum tu kerja Allah dan manusia mampu tolong sesama sendiri ja. Cakap la bajet alim ka apa.  Atleast aku cuba. 

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 peh post aku ni bajet bagus gila

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI

 Assalamualaikum,

"SELAMAT HARI RAYA, MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN"

Ahahah rasanya lewat bebeno ucapan raya aku ni. Yet i still need to. Buat sahabat-sahabat sekalian yang mengenali mahupun tak mengenali aku, aku ucapkan selamat menyambut hari kemenangan. Buat yang berada di malaysia, raya kita kan sebulan, maka hari kemenangan pun harus sebulan. Hahha. Ok just kidding.Sesat sesat.

Dalam pada ini, pada semua, aku nak minta maaf zahir dan batin. Sekecik-kecik dosa aku kat hangpa, aku mintak dimaafkan. Although hangpa rasa mcm takdak, just sebut "Aku maafkan Qistina ni". Kot la dulu pernah terkecik hati dengan apa yang aku carutkan kat sini. 

Dan aku maafkan hangpa. Sama ada kenai atau tak aku maafkan. Apa saja dosa hangpa kat aku (yang takdak tu xpalah, bole skip kot perenggan ni) aku maafkan. Apa saja hangpa umpat aku, aku maafkan. Apa saja hangpa sangka buruk kat aku, aku maafkan. Sekecik mana pun dosa hangpa kat aku, aku maafkan. Aku takmau ada sapa-sapa hutang maaf dengan aku. Just to make you clear. 

Raya tahun ni aku pakai oren. Hahahah mcm ada org kisah pulak. Cuma raya tahun ni mcm rollercoaster sikit. Bercakap pasal roller coaster semalam aku tengok Final Destination 3. But rasanya yang ke4 lg interesting kot.  Ok berbalik pada topik tadi, aaa... kelam kabut. Final exam masa raya kot. kira cuti raya tu break exam la. Lepas raya ke5 ada paper balik. Stress tak stress aku sampai merajuk dengan kwn pun menyorok belakang pintu. Apa kes. Stress apanya? Dilema nak study waktu org sibuk beraya. Aku bukak buku aku tutup aku bukak aku tutup aku bukak aku tutup aku bukak last sekali mata aku yang tutup. 

But seriously sem ni sangat mencabar sebab bnyak sangat imputnya. banyak sangat topik to cover. Yet compared to sem lepas, sem ni sangat fun. Lecturer sumpah best. Tak stress langsung kalau nak banding dengan sem lepas. Yang stressnya banyak benda kena handle tambah pula aku p jadi exco persatuan. Wow such good timing. Busy dah tahap MPP. 

Right aku nk kena gi masak ni. Assalamualaikum.

kelaut.

 

Assalamualaikum. Kehadapan sedari Qistina yang sedang mereput di rumah, or shall i call "rumah baru". Ya sedari yang tengah cuti sem ni dan pulang ke rumah baru, baru  tak baru jugak lah berpindah rumah ke negeri ehem. Macam mana rasanya hidup jauh dari kota besar? Kota tak kota jugak la en. Bandar tak bandar sangat mall pun sebijik ja boleh lawat. But not a big deal at all. At least i can save some moneh yeah that one is undeniably cool. Right. Em tryin to be as positive as possible so that i may rest in peace in the living room. Oh yeah i looooveeee the living room instead of .. my own room. weird. Ah takpayah weird sangat simply to the fact that there's a gigantic tv in the living room and it is much cooler. No kidding man, the temperature these days had killed me.. by my own axillary. Btw, axillary is armpit. pffttt anatomy *rolling eyes

Just to let you know Qistina. You procrastinated a lot. Please come to your senses. *earthquakes on ze shoulders* You need to study like seriously stop saying 'em gonna memorize the muscles today, i really need to' and then end up writting craps in the blog. Apa nak jadi hang ni. dah la pasan orang puteh. tuih. *Tampar pipi* okkkkk.. I've come to my senses now.